If my skin could talk…

What would it say? I imagine that my skin hates me but I think it has a much gentler voice.

Ruth, it’s OK. It really is all going to be OK. I don’t hate you. And I’m not trying to hurt you.

I know I do hurt you, daily, hourly, sometimes every second. But I’m so busy trying to help get this stuff out your body and it seems one way of doing that is unfortunately through me. Your skin.

I’m doing the best I can right now and I hope things will get easier.

I do love you. I’ve always loved you. Right from that first time you started to scratch me with those tiny little dagger baby nails you had. I knew then I loved you and would stay with you through thick and thin.

And I know I look awful right now but I have big plans for 2020.

You and me babe, we are going to make sweet music when we’re healed.

You just gotta give me time.

And I need you. You’re doing some really great things at the moment. I love the epsom salt baths and the tea tree. I can tell you’re using some more natural skincare too, I love some of it but some of it makes me sting. I can feel how you’re trying to treat me right, better, softer. Just the way you touch me now is gentler. Thank you for that. It’s the way I deserve to be treated because I am your biggest organ and as such should have your full support.

Because you’ve been rough. You have really hurt me in the past. And it’s felt like you just wouldn’t listen to me. To my cries for help. But you did listen, I knew you could hear me.

I just want you to know, I don’t blame you. For any of it. It wasn’t your fault. Please don’t beat yourself up. All that guilt is just unhelpful. And the anxiety it creates makes me even more itchy.

I’m really proud of my scars and how much I’ve already healed, with your help. What we’ve been through, you and me. It’s made us stronger.

And I know it doesn’t feel like it but the cracks are healing. We are both getting stronger. This torture has only made us stronger. Our bond is unbreakable.

And to be honest, you are kind of stuck with me. I couldn’t think of a soul I would rather spend my life with, so let’s be kind.

Remember, I love you. Even when you feel really desperate and in pain. I love you. Please just know that and we can get through anything.

With love,

Your skin xxx